AfterVoiceS (2008)
studio demo
tracks: (klik op een songtitel om de tekst ervan te bekijken)
line-up:
Floortje Jansen - Voices
Jeroen Tacx - Guitars
Arjan Kuijper - 6-String Bass
George Newman - Drums
credits:
All lyrics written by F. Jansen
All music written by J. Tacx, A. Kuijper and G. Newman,
except track 3 by J. Tacx, E. Beurskens, A. Kuijper and G. Newman
Artwork by J. Tacx
(performance 'Theatrical Cars' by Thomas Hoepker
'Drowning in Questions' by Boon
band member pictures taken by Karin Klein-Wolt)
Produced by White Lily
Recorded, mixed and mastered by Jan Jaap Doeven
Assistant engineer: Tarah Ouwerkerk
Recorded 2007-2008 at Conservatorium Alkmaar
Additional overdubs recorded at Jan Jaap's Home Studio
lyrics:
Voices part 1
Haunting silence come over here I’ll breathe you in
Close my eyes I want to feel you deep within
Under my skin
I could tell you
Delightful stories
Of the way I’m breaking down
I can be so intolerable
Totally undecipherable
In my head I hear it all
When Sanity reigns the rest
I know I will be at my best
But they’re breathing down my neck
I’ll do anything to hold them back
* I’m a slave to these voices
These noises in my head
I’m a slave to these voices
These noises keep me sane
I can feel you
Come here I want you to
I can feel you
Come here I want you to
This primal fear
Keeps me from saying
What I want and need today and
If you could only see but
You will never know I’ll
Never be anything but me
You see
*
When Vanity reigns the rest
I know I’ll be at my best
I could charm you, disarm you
Put you to the test
You’d never know I’m a mess
Haunting silence come over here I’ll breathe you in……
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
Close my eyes I want to feel you deep within
Under my skin
I could tell you
Delightful stories
Of the way I’m breaking down
I can be so intolerable
Totally undecipherable
In my head I hear it all
When Sanity reigns the rest
I know I will be at my best
But they’re breathing down my neck
I’ll do anything to hold them back
* I’m a slave to these voices
These noises in my head
I’m a slave to these voices
These noises keep me sane
I can feel you
Come here I want you to
I can feel you
Come here I want you to
This primal fear
Keeps me from saying
What I want and need today and
If you could only see but
You will never know I’ll
Never be anything but me
You see
*
When Vanity reigns the rest
I know I’ll be at my best
I could charm you, disarm you
Put you to the test
You’d never know I’m a mess
Haunting silence come over here I’ll breathe you in……
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
I.C.U.
I told you you are exceeding
In what you ask and your needing
I know it’s hard to be in your shoes
That’s no excuse
For being rude
See, how, I
See, how, I run and run……yeah I run
I’ll sign you on
For martyrdom
If you want me to
I know you, I see you
You self-destruct and I’m watching
You want me to see who you are now
Well hold out your palms are they bleeding?
If not how can you justify, justify, justify this?
See, how, you
See, how, you run and run……
I’ll sign you on
For martyrdom
If you want me to
I know you, I see you
I’m no I.C.U.
You say you can’t concentrate on what I say
It’s so hard
But hey
Why should I listen to what you say?
If it’s so hard for you to hear me?
I know you, I see you
I’m no I.C.U.
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
In what you ask and your needing
I know it’s hard to be in your shoes
That’s no excuse
For being rude
See, how, I
See, how, I run and run……yeah I run
I’ll sign you on
For martyrdom
If you want me to
I know you, I see you
You self-destruct and I’m watching
You want me to see who you are now
Well hold out your palms are they bleeding?
If not how can you justify, justify, justify this?
See, how, you
See, how, you run and run……
I’ll sign you on
For martyrdom
If you want me to
I know you, I see you
I’m no I.C.U.
You say you can’t concentrate on what I say
It’s so hard
But hey
Why should I listen to what you say?
If it’s so hard for you to hear me?
I know you, I see you
I’m no I.C.U.
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
Screams
Violence or silence
Control lies in my hands
Stand up, come here
Now just bow down my dear
It’s no crime, it’s a rhyme
It’s a state, it’s a state of mind
Violence or silence
What once was in your hands
It’s a state, it’s a state of mind
In my dreams
I hear your screams
Won’t you scream for me?
Play in reverse
I remember the worst
It’s constantly fearing
What’s next now my dear
Sit down, hold tight
Don’t you touch me tonight
Don’t you know that it’s me?
Won’t you see what I see?
Bow down, on your knees
I will do as I please
Now just wait for the pain
Oh it’s coming, it’s coming
It’s here
In my dreams
I hear your screams
Won’t you scream for me?
I can hear you breathing
I can hear you pleading
Did I hear you begging me for more?
I can see you breaking
Why won’t you just take it?
Just swallow as I did before
I can see your eyes drop
I can see your pride stop
I can see the blood drops on the floor
I can hear you breathing
I can hear you pleading
Did I hear you begging me for more?
I can see your eyes drop
I can see your pride stop
I can see the blood drops on the floor
I still hear the pleading
Officer believe me
He was still breathing when he begged for more
When he begged for more
In my dreams
Still
Hear your screams
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
Control lies in my hands
Stand up, come here
Now just bow down my dear
It’s no crime, it’s a rhyme
It’s a state, it’s a state of mind
Violence or silence
What once was in your hands
It’s a state, it’s a state of mind
In my dreams
I hear your screams
Won’t you scream for me?
Play in reverse
I remember the worst
It’s constantly fearing
What’s next now my dear
Sit down, hold tight
Don’t you touch me tonight
Don’t you know that it’s me?
Won’t you see what I see?
Bow down, on your knees
I will do as I please
Now just wait for the pain
Oh it’s coming, it’s coming
It’s here
In my dreams
I hear your screams
Won’t you scream for me?
I can hear you breathing
I can hear you pleading
Did I hear you begging me for more?
I can see you breaking
Why won’t you just take it?
Just swallow as I did before
I can see your eyes drop
I can see your pride stop
I can see the blood drops on the floor
I can hear you breathing
I can hear you pleading
Did I hear you begging me for more?
I can see your eyes drop
I can see your pride stop
I can see the blood drops on the floor
I still hear the pleading
Officer believe me
He was still breathing when he begged for more
When he begged for more
In my dreams
Still
Hear your screams
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
Feast on Sinners
Step inside step inside
So no one can see you, hide
Step inside step inside
Take a breath
You’re still alive
Close your eyes close your eyes
So no one can see you, hide
Close your eyes close your eyes
So no one can see you
Take a breath
You’re still alive
No more lies no disguise
No more lies no disguise
Discard the fear
That brought
You here
*Came of age came of age
Worshipping your father’s faith
Came of age came of age
Realize it’s no disgrace
Realize, realize
See it in your father’s eyes
Realize realize
Hell is made for those who pray
Sin, how you sin everyday
Lust, with you’re lusting that way
They’ll throw you on the bonfire
Pray for your eternal soul
Shame, make you feel ashamed of yourself
Fire, cleansing fire, purgatory, eternal damnation
Why and why?
All because you wanted her
** And they’ll pray
And they’ll sing
And they’ll clap
Do their thing
Go to bed
Feeling whole
Cause they tried
To save your soul
*
She, I said she has led you astray
She, I said she decided your ways
They’ll throw her on the bonfire
Pray for her eternal soul
Feast, how they feast on you both
**
*
Do they feast on sinners today?
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
So no one can see you, hide
Step inside step inside
Take a breath
You’re still alive
Close your eyes close your eyes
So no one can see you, hide
Close your eyes close your eyes
So no one can see you
Take a breath
You’re still alive
No more lies no disguise
No more lies no disguise
Discard the fear
That brought
You here
*Came of age came of age
Worshipping your father’s faith
Came of age came of age
Realize it’s no disgrace
Realize, realize
See it in your father’s eyes
Realize realize
Hell is made for those who pray
Sin, how you sin everyday
Lust, with you’re lusting that way
They’ll throw you on the bonfire
Pray for your eternal soul
Shame, make you feel ashamed of yourself
Fire, cleansing fire, purgatory, eternal damnation
Why and why?
All because you wanted her
** And they’ll pray
And they’ll sing
And they’ll clap
Do their thing
Go to bed
Feeling whole
Cause they tried
To save your soul
*
She, I said she has led you astray
She, I said she decided your ways
They’ll throw her on the bonfire
Pray for her eternal soul
Feast, how they feast on you both
**
*
Do they feast on sinners today?
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
Voices part 2
Close my eyes I want to feel you deep, deep, deep within
Close them, close them with me
You can be so loud
Tried to drown you out
Won’t you just stop talking?
Yet another voice
Yet another voice inside my head
Would you do for me
What I did for you?
Would you do for me
What I did for you?
Would you listen?
Such a pretty pretty boy
All you pretty pretty boys need to learn to keep your mouth’s shut
* I’m a slave to these voices
These noises in my head
I’m a slave to these voices
These noises keep me sane
When your voice rules the rest
I know I’ll not be at my best
You could charm me, disarm me
Put me to the test
And I’ll tell you upfront
I’m not having that
Would you hurt me?
Hurt me my friend?
I’m not easy, easy to understand
I’ve got voices inside which I subtly hide
It’s the way that I’m free It’s the way that I fight
If I let you in would you play with me nice?
Would you take the controls, or just give me advice?
Would you let me, let me, be me?
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
Close them, close them with me
You can be so loud
Tried to drown you out
Won’t you just stop talking?
Yet another voice
Yet another voice inside my head
Would you do for me
What I did for you?
Would you do for me
What I did for you?
Would you listen?
Such a pretty pretty boy
All you pretty pretty boys need to learn to keep your mouth’s shut
* I’m a slave to these voices
These noises in my head
I’m a slave to these voices
These noises keep me sane
When your voice rules the rest
I know I’ll not be at my best
You could charm me, disarm me
Put me to the test
And I’ll tell you upfront
I’m not having that
Would you hurt me?
Hurt me my friend?
I’m not easy, easy to understand
I’ve got voices inside which I subtly hide
It’s the way that I’m free It’s the way that I fight
If I let you in would you play with me nice?
Would you take the controls, or just give me advice?
Would you let me, let me, be me?
© 2008 Floortje Jansen
